[ he shrugs. ] No clue. I don't know what I was doing before I got here or what situation I was in. And I don't really know anyone here that well either.
That sounds tough...but it's also like a new opportunity.
[ of course flat's going to find a silver lining. it's in his nature. ]
It might be kinda overwhelming, but I think you could start fresh! You might not know people very well, but there's other people that do. For example, Kururin is kind of like an engineer. A genius one, at that.
You'll be surprised at the friendships you can make in a short while.
[ in other words: try it out! but then again, flat is quite the social butterfly. ]
I...I didn't get along with many people, actually. I mean, I got along with Susato, maybe...and that was about it. Now that I think about it, I should have probably taken that as a warning sign.
[ because good lord if you get along with a monster--
oh, wait, right. ]
Xie Lian, too. But he's not human, so that's not surprising.
[ what a deeply weird way to refer to your weird head shit ]
And, uh. How did you handle that? The not getting along with people thing, I mean. Like, what did you do while everyone else was...not getting along with you?
It happened because I was lucky. If I died in my world, it wouldn’t have happened.
[ but flat nods. they’re not the same. ]
Yep. But I think… that might not be the worst thing ever? I had a friend that told me that people are all trying to put their watches in sync. I don’t think I’ve ever found anyone like myself either. I don’t think I will either.
[ it's a nice sentiment, one he really wants to believe in. unconditional acceptance, even if he's lost and confused and not at all the person people want him to be--or someone they even know at all...
it still feels too good to be true. ]
What, just like that? How can you even be so sure?
You see, when I was a kid, my parents and all my previous teachers were afraid of me because I was different. And after getting kicked out of every school I was in, I met my current professor, and he was the first person that treated me like a normal human. I have friends, too, who don't treat me like something strange or scary...they just treat me like I'm...well, me.
[ he shrugs. ]
It might take some time to find, but I think there's gotta be someone out there like that for you, even if you don't remember them. [ a pause. ] And if there's no one like that in your world, then you've always got us!
Can't start knowing anyone if you don't try. Have you ever done a trust fall?
[ he extends his hand! ]
My name's Flat Escardos. I'm 19 years old and a mage from the El-Melloi School of Modern Magecraft. My likes are all sorts of subcultures, humans, and non humans, and my dislikes are exercise-- it's nice to meet you!
Uhh...they're all good, I guess? I think dark's a little too bitter, but I'm not really sure. I haven't had, like, a huge variety of it.
And EVOs are...well, in my world, everyone's got these tiny machines in them. And if they activate, they mutate you and turn you into an EVO. So, that's what I am.
[ he smirks and laughs a little at that. psh, what an amateur, you can't even use the words right ]
No, it's--the machines in people are called nanites. An EVO is what they turn you into. And there's not really a whole lot of controlling going on. They just randomly activate, and then it's usually just...random rampaging.
But... [ shakes his head ] I'm not really sure what happened with me when I died. I know how nanites and EVOs work in general, but everything about my nanites just doesn't match up. All I know is, it's not new. Apparently I already had memory problems even before I died.
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I'm technically not human either. Maybe it's some kind of prerequisite for weird brain stuff.
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[ flat laughs, shaking his head. ]
But what I said also applies to you. If you think you're human, then you are. That's just how it is.
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[ nods. he believes in you. ]
What will you do when you're alive again?
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[ of course flat's going to find a silver lining. it's in his nature. ]
It might be kinda overwhelming, but I think you could start fresh! You might not know people very well, but there's other people that do. For example, Kururin is kind of like an engineer. A genius one, at that.
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I don't know if starting fresh is possible though. I mean, it's been weeks now, and everyone else is already so close with each other.
What did you do when you got all...other-you-y?
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[ in other words: try it out! but then again, flat is quite the social butterfly. ]
I...I didn't get along with many people, actually. I mean, I got along with Susato, maybe...and that was about it. Now that I think about it, I should have probably taken that as a warning sign.
[ because good lord if you get along with a monster--
oh, wait, right. ]
Xie Lian, too. But he's not human, so that's not surprising.
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And, uh. How did you handle that? The not getting along with people thing, I mean. Like, what did you do while everyone else was...not getting along with you?
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I couldn't do anything. I mean, I was barely awake for it so it felt like a bad dream, I think.
[ so trapped in your own body, forced to have something that you dislike pilot it-- that sort of thing. ]
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...I guess we're not all that alike after all, then, huh?
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[ but flat nods. they’re not the same. ]
Yep. But I think… that might not be the worst thing ever? I had a friend that told me that people are all trying to put their watches in sync. I don’t think I’ve ever found anyone like myself either. I don’t think I will either.
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[ hmm… ]
It gets easier. Honestly, it still scares me sometimes, when I see that I’m acting or seeing things in a way that’s different from everyone.
But there’s people out there that will accept you anyways, even if you’re human, artificial, or something in between! And if not, I know I will.
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it still feels too good to be true. ]
What, just like that? How can you even be so sure?
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[ he nods, smiling resolutely. ]
You see, when I was a kid, my parents and all my previous teachers were afraid of me because I was different. And after getting kicked out of every school I was in, I met my current professor, and he was the first person that treated me like a normal human. I have friends, too, who don't treat me like something strange or scary...they just treat me like I'm...well, me.
[ he shrugs. ]
It might take some time to find, but I think there's gotta be someone out there like that for you, even if you don't remember them. [ a pause. ] And if there's no one like that in your world, then you've always got us!
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...I hardly know any of you, though.
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[ he extends his hand! ]
My name's Flat Escardos. I'm 19 years old and a mage from the El-Melloi School of Modern Magecraft. My likes are all sorts of subcultures, humans, and non humans, and my dislikes are exercise-- it's nice to meet you!
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If I have, I don't remember it.
[ but, tentatively, he'll take the offered hand and shake. ]
...I'm Rex. Salazar, apparently. I think I'm 16, and I'm an EVO. I like chocolate, and I dislike...dying, I guess.
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[ he'll shake back eagerly! ]
Yeah, dying's the worst, isn't it? But chocolate's pretty good--milk, white, or dark chocolate? And what's an EVO all about?
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And EVOs are...well, in my world, everyone's got these tiny machines in them. And if they activate, they mutate you and turn you into an EVO. So, that's what I am.
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[ interesting??? ]
So when you died, the EVOs took over? No, that's not right...it did a factory reset, or something like that? Like when your CPU overheats.
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No, it's--the machines in people are called nanites. An EVO is what they turn you into. And there's not really a whole lot of controlling going on. They just randomly activate, and then it's usually just...random rampaging.
But... [ shakes his head ] I'm not really sure what happened with me when I died. I know how nanites and EVOs work in general, but everything about my nanites just doesn't match up. All I know is, it's not new. Apparently I already had memory problems even before I died.