So you showed up here while dying, and then...stopped dying? How'd you already know about your whole...other-you thing if you stopped dying before you actually...died?
[ he shrugs. ] No clue. I don't know what I was doing before I got here or what situation I was in. And I don't really know anyone here that well either.
That sounds tough...but it's also like a new opportunity.
[ of course flat's going to find a silver lining. it's in his nature. ]
It might be kinda overwhelming, but I think you could start fresh! You might not know people very well, but there's other people that do. For example, Kururin is kind of like an engineer. A genius one, at that.
You'll be surprised at the friendships you can make in a short while.
[ in other words: try it out! but then again, flat is quite the social butterfly. ]
I...I didn't get along with many people, actually. I mean, I got along with Susato, maybe...and that was about it. Now that I think about it, I should have probably taken that as a warning sign.
[ because good lord if you get along with a monster--
oh, wait, right. ]
Xie Lian, too. But he's not human, so that's not surprising.
[ what a deeply weird way to refer to your weird head shit ]
And, uh. How did you handle that? The not getting along with people thing, I mean. Like, what did you do while everyone else was...not getting along with you?
It happened because I was lucky. If I died in my world, it wouldn’t have happened.
[ but flat nods. they’re not the same. ]
Yep. But I think… that might not be the worst thing ever? I had a friend that told me that people are all trying to put their watches in sync. I don’t think I’ve ever found anyone like myself either. I don’t think I will either.
[ it's a nice sentiment, one he really wants to believe in. unconditional acceptance, even if he's lost and confused and not at all the person people want him to be--or someone they even know at all...
it still feels too good to be true. ]
What, just like that? How can you even be so sure?
You see, when I was a kid, my parents and all my previous teachers were afraid of me because I was different. And after getting kicked out of every school I was in, I met my current professor, and he was the first person that treated me like a normal human. I have friends, too, who don't treat me like something strange or scary...they just treat me like I'm...well, me.
[ he shrugs. ]
It might take some time to find, but I think there's gotta be someone out there like that for you, even if you don't remember them. [ a pause. ] And if there's no one like that in your world, then you've always got us!
Can't start knowing anyone if you don't try. Have you ever done a trust fall?
[ he extends his hand! ]
My name's Flat Escardos. I'm 19 years old and a mage from the El-Melloi School of Modern Magecraft. My likes are all sorts of subcultures, humans, and non humans, and my dislikes are exercise-- it's nice to meet you!
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[ he taps his temple with a finger. ]
Besides, I’ve always known I was different. I’m… well, it’s kind of like…I can’t help being like this? Like, acting weird and stuff.
[ he gestures at himself. sometimes you are aware that you are an annoying dumbass… ]
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[ he thought you were just naturally like that tbh ]
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[ he shrugs. it is what it is, as much as he dislikes it. ]
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[ he shrugs! ]
But maybe it doesn't matter what I am, as long as I believe in what I think I am. So if I think I'm human, therefore I am.
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I'm technically not human either. Maybe it's some kind of prerequisite for weird brain stuff.
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[ flat laughs, shaking his head. ]
But what I said also applies to you. If you think you're human, then you are. That's just how it is.
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[ nods. he believes in you. ]
What will you do when you're alive again?
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[ of course flat's going to find a silver lining. it's in his nature. ]
It might be kinda overwhelming, but I think you could start fresh! You might not know people very well, but there's other people that do. For example, Kururin is kind of like an engineer. A genius one, at that.
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I don't know if starting fresh is possible though. I mean, it's been weeks now, and everyone else is already so close with each other.
What did you do when you got all...other-you-y?
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[ in other words: try it out! but then again, flat is quite the social butterfly. ]
I...I didn't get along with many people, actually. I mean, I got along with Susato, maybe...and that was about it. Now that I think about it, I should have probably taken that as a warning sign.
[ because good lord if you get along with a monster--
oh, wait, right. ]
Xie Lian, too. But he's not human, so that's not surprising.
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And, uh. How did you handle that? The not getting along with people thing, I mean. Like, what did you do while everyone else was...not getting along with you?
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I couldn't do anything. I mean, I was barely awake for it so it felt like a bad dream, I think.
[ so trapped in your own body, forced to have something that you dislike pilot it-- that sort of thing. ]
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...I guess we're not all that alike after all, then, huh?
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[ but flat nods. they’re not the same. ]
Yep. But I think… that might not be the worst thing ever? I had a friend that told me that people are all trying to put their watches in sync. I don’t think I’ve ever found anyone like myself either. I don’t think I will either.
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[ hmm… ]
It gets easier. Honestly, it still scares me sometimes, when I see that I’m acting or seeing things in a way that’s different from everyone.
But there’s people out there that will accept you anyways, even if you’re human, artificial, or something in between! And if not, I know I will.
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it still feels too good to be true. ]
What, just like that? How can you even be so sure?
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[ he nods, smiling resolutely. ]
You see, when I was a kid, my parents and all my previous teachers were afraid of me because I was different. And after getting kicked out of every school I was in, I met my current professor, and he was the first person that treated me like a normal human. I have friends, too, who don't treat me like something strange or scary...they just treat me like I'm...well, me.
[ he shrugs. ]
It might take some time to find, but I think there's gotta be someone out there like that for you, even if you don't remember them. [ a pause. ] And if there's no one like that in your world, then you've always got us!
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...I hardly know any of you, though.
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[ he extends his hand! ]
My name's Flat Escardos. I'm 19 years old and a mage from the El-Melloi School of Modern Magecraft. My likes are all sorts of subcultures, humans, and non humans, and my dislikes are exercise-- it's nice to meet you!
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If I have, I don't remember it.
[ but, tentatively, he'll take the offered hand and shake. ]
...I'm Rex. Salazar, apparently. I think I'm 16, and I'm an EVO. I like chocolate, and I dislike...dying, I guess.
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