it's not up to me. i'm the one that hurt you enough to cause what happened. the decision is yours. if it will cause you pain to stay bonded to me, i don't want that for you.
that’s what it believes, too. i have a purpose, and things like emotions will only hinder me.
but you see, cu, i liked learning all of those emotions. it made me feel like something close to a human being, even if it led me down more inefficient roads sometimes. i don’t want to be a killer and much less hurt you. you want the best for me, but you said that... then there is a contradiction in your logic. unless you believe that the best for me IS letting go of these emotions—if so, then no contradictions found.
i just want to live my last months conscious here, before something happens and i lose myself, surrounded by my friends. you’re one of them, whether you like it or not. our bonding status doesn’t matter nearly as much to me as much as whether or not we’re friends.
i only meant it as far as it applied to a grail war, nothing else. you're more human than a lot of people, for better or for worse.
but i hurt you. for that i've failed in my promise to you. i'm not afraid of the part of you that killed me in the dream. i'm not afraid of what it could do to me. i offer the option to sever our bond only because i broke my word. it's not worth much because i am such a broken beast, but i care about you. i want you to be comfortable. you're obviously not comfortable around me right now and i wouldn't be surprised if you never were again.
well that makes one of us. im very afraid. but not of you! i am
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not angry. and disappointed sounds like i’m a teacher. i guess i’m upset? but i’m not afraid of you. if i’m human then you’re twice the human i am. and not just because you are a giant lol. broken beast sounds so dramatic yknow?
the other me, well, its not that it dislikes you. i think it just sees you as unnecessary at best and a threat at worst. it would love to break the bond, but just because it’s not a good thing for it.
...you are welcome to come back if you ever feel like it.
[ He's not too good with the whole dealing with his emotions thing. He's not dealing well with what happened now. ]
i suppose if it wants the bond broken, then i won't do it, just to spite it for what it did. i don't want to lose you as a bonded...but as i said, it's your choice to make, not mine.
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talk to me. please. that's all i ask.
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ahaha, severing the bond is up to you, not me. i’ll follow suit on whatever you want.
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i just want what's best for you. that's not me.
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things like emotions only get in the way.
that’s what it believes, too. i have a purpose, and things like emotions will only hinder me.
but you see, cu, i liked learning all of those emotions. it made me feel like something close to a human being, even if it led me down more inefficient roads sometimes. i don’t want to be a killer and much less hurt you. you want the best for me, but you said that... then there is a contradiction in your logic. unless you believe that the best for me IS letting go of these emotions—if so, then no contradictions found.
i just want to live my last months conscious here, before something happens and i lose myself, surrounded by my friends. you’re one of them, whether you like it or not. our bonding status doesn’t matter nearly as much to me as much as whether or not we’re friends.
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but i hurt you. for that i've failed in my promise to you. i'm not afraid of the part of you that killed me in the dream. i'm not afraid of what it could do to me. i offer the option to sever our bond only because i broke my word. it's not worth much because i am such a broken beast, but i care about you. i want you to be comfortable. you're obviously not comfortable around me right now and i wouldn't be surprised if you never were again.
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not angry. and disappointed sounds like i’m a teacher. i guess i’m upset? but i’m not afraid of you. if i’m human then you’re twice the human i am. and not just because you are a giant lol. broken beast sounds so dramatic yknow?
the other me, well, its not that it dislikes you. i think it just sees you as unnecessary at best and a threat at worst. it would love to break the bond, but just because it’s not a good thing for it.
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[ He's not too good with the whole dealing with his emotions thing. He's not dealing well with what happened now. ]
i suppose if it wants the bond broken, then i won't do it, just to spite it for what it did. i don't want to lose you as a bonded...but as i said, it's your choice to make, not mine.
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i want the best for you too.
i guess that what i'm trying to to get at is that
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i might end up hurting you? well. not me. the other me. and i mean hurting you for real. and that's kind of scary.
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